Within me a lunatic sings.

When does it become redundant to say that "things have just been hard for me lately"? After about 3 years? What about "there's been a lot going on recently"?



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Go do.

 Like I said, I really was in a Go Do phase.






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I want to make you happy, I want to make you feel alive.

 I just love this one.





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We should always know that we can do anything.

I fell head over heels in love with Go Do by Jonsi a few weeks ago.


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Running home, running home, running home, running. Home.

It drives me absolutely crazy every time that I forgot to capitalize the 'm' in I'm. And yes, you would not have noticed that if I hadn't said.

And so though love may not inspire my lingo, still it's making my heart go BANG-o BING-o.



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You look at me, it's like you hit me with lightening.

So, you know those little hipster books that are a compilation of inspirational sketches? I finally found one that I could bring myself to buy. Because naturally I want to buy them all. But this one had Marc Johns in it. And he's my favorite. So thus I came to own one of those little artsy feel-good hipster books.

Anyways, I feel like this collection could easily fit into one of those. Because it was really simple, but still meaningful, and anyone in the world could do it who doesn't have an artistic bone in their body or a vision for tomorrow.

"This piece is a symbol for America's struggle to accept people that were cool before they themselves were. As the artist I add an important element, although I usually try to stay outside of my artwork to show the objectness of it. I'm really obscure. You've probably never heard of me."

So, basically, I know this sketch isn't revolutionary. But it made you smile. So I still win.




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And I told you to be patient, and I told you to be fine.

The jagged painting in the bottom left corner bugs me every time I look at this. Other than that I love the simplicity.





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Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole.

A lot can be said with this format. So I rolled with it.




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There's a wrinkle in the water.

This is my life.



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I wanna stand up, I wanna let go.

I LOVE ELEPHANTS.



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I wonder, how's it gonna be when you don't know me.

Pretty much, I have the coolest friends ever.




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I saw the scene unfold on a rainy Sunday.

This painting turned out better than any of the ones I've ever tried to do like it. It turned out better than I even expected or hoped it would.




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There's a low moon caught in your tangles.

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Here's a hand to lay on your open palm today.

Sometimes it just takes a good dear Johning.





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Of angels and angles.

by the Decemberists


I have been in love with this song since I actually finished listening to the entire album of Picaresque.



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The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out.

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My kind's your kind, I'll stay the same.

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No, they'll never catch me now.

Falling in Love in a Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg
{I've probably already posted this..buttt I don't care.}




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Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.

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Well I'll float on maybe would you understand?

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I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.

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Old gypsy woman spoke to me, lips stained red from a bottle of wine.

Holga:)



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We travel without seatbelts on, we live this close to death.

Remember Last Time by Avi Buffalo

My watercolor paper is too big for my scanner..so it's a bit blurry and the color is a tad bit wonky. With my sketches like this I use larger paper and don't use and pen or ink. For my outlining I use water color, and for the people I leave them in pencil.




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I've been waiting, pacing along the halls ever since you left here.

It's true. I do write in books.




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And when she sings, I hear a symphony.

Stay Young, Go Dancing by Death Cab

We're kings among run aways.

Of Angels and Angles by The Decemberists

I have been in love with this song since I got back from theater camp.





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In matching blue raincoats.

I miss theater camp so muchh!!




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She came to my show just to hear about my day.

So, I have been neglecting (and anyone who read this blog has heard this a billion times) my blogging duties. And more importantly my photography duties. Because in order to keep up with my Project 365 blog I have had to slack on posting on this blog. And even before that once I started sketching more regularly it took over my photography time and therefore this blog was eaten up by mostly sketch posts. I have also been slacking on detailed editing of my photos. I admit that I have been just automatic fixing my photos. But I have repented of my sins, and have gotten back into the swing of manually editing my photos. And I'm so glad to be back!



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And we don't care about the young folks.

I've had this song (Fix You by Coldplay) stuck in my head for a long while. I had to let it out of there. This sketch is done entirely in Sharpie Pen. And it was a terrible journey to try and find my blue one, which I remembered after starting the sketch had been lost since forever. But I knew I had it, and it had to be somewhere in my room or Narnia. Alas! I found it. But after I did all the decorations on the words. So I did a cool double exposure effect.




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There are angels in your angles.

It occurred to me one day that I wanted to be the kind of old person who wears sweaters. The kind of sweaters that make people stop and go, "Wow, there's a good lookin' sweater." And then maybe we could start a sweater clan. And influence the younger generations with our crazy good looks and classy sweaters. I don't know, there's just something about a good sweater that says, "I have a warm heart, also, a warm torso."




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There's no people like show people

"Awko taco."

"NO, TOPAZ, NO!!"

She's so great!:D

"Look over there, something more interesting than the blood running down my knees."

"We slept through dinner, we're going to be so hungry."
"We have poptarts and captain crunch.."

"You can come meet all my friends! Both of them!!"

"I'm the Lamanites and you're the Nephites. And this is the part of the Book of Mormon where the Lamanites kill all the Nephites."

"It's a goose that's actually a dinosaur. It eats humans and poops out zombies."







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Let me give you the low down:

I don't want to go back to real life. In fact, if I could completely avoid it I would do so whole heartedly. And in a way I am avoiding real life. And that feels amazing. I'm not going back to school. I'm not going to force myself to be friends with people who I don't want to be. I'm not going to limit myself by telling myself if I don't do this my life won't be as full. Being an introvert is completely okay. And I plan on embracing that.

I miss being whoever I wanted to be. The hardest thing was knowing that upon coming home things would be exactly the same. The same people. The same situations. The same everything. And the only way I can even comprehend dealing with it is distancing myself from it as much as possible. I just want to get away from all of it. And then sometimes I wonder if I'm just running away from my problems..but I try to tell myself that I'm not. I have exhausted all of my other resources. And I am so happy to not be going back to public school. That maybe I can remain myself, and remain whoever I want to be. 

And maybe through all of this I can stay with all of the amazing people I met. All of the people who seem to deal with all of the same things I do. I think the best thing in the world would be for all of us to go to one school; that would certainly be the most amazing thing that could possibly happen. Then none of us would have to deal with any of it. 

I guess I just miss camp is all. But camp meant something so much more to me. It was people knowing me with no preconceived notions. It was getting away from all of the baggage that home comes with. It was making the best friend I will probably ever have {seeing how all of my past best friendships have gone}. It was meeting people who I could relate to; whose two priories, church and theater, were the same as mine. It was learning and growing so much in so many different parts of my life. 

I guess the most important part of it all for me was that I don't have to be alone. That maybe I have to be while I am here. But out there somewhere there are people who see me, and value me not just for being quirky, or dressing uniquely, or anything temporal; but who value my divine worth. Who value me. And understand, and relate, and even through all of the deep stuff we still enjoy the same goofy temporal things like Gilmore Girls, or Invader Zim, or Flight of the Concords. And to any of you who are reading this: don't think I'm going to give you up without a fight:)

I never want to go back into the "real world". I loved where I was in my life for those two weeks too much to do that to myself again. 

I haven't had a good rant like this in a long time. 

I'm k-ra-zy for you!

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